I am not looking for a reinvention this year. My resolution is to dig a little and unearth my strongest self. I’ve let it slip away some this past year. I’ve been lax. I’ve allowed my head to live in the clouds and wondered why it seemed so foggy. Now that I think about it, it’s kind of ironic that I should find my resolve by looking to the stars.
I unwrapped You and Your Future by Georgia Nicols this Christmas and came across a provoking snippet. Nicols explained that the words in the Bible had changed over the past two thousand years, and how Christ’s words were meant differently than they’re interpreted today. In his day, “sin” meant to miss a bull’s eye. If you’d missed the target, you’d sinned. “Repent” meant to swing 180 degrees on a two-dimensional plane. In other words, if you put a pencil on a table and then you swung it 180 degrees, the eraser would point in the other direction. Neither words were associated with guilt or remorse. So when Christ said, “Sinners repent,” what he really meant to say was, “If you’re missing the mark, try going in the opposite direction.”
I missed the bull’s eye in 2010. I tossed aside goals in favor of dreams that were beyond my reach to actualize. I put my heart and happiness in the palm of a near stranger’s hand. I lived in the past and I lived in tomorrow. And when I look back on my mental health in 2010, I don’t see a very happy girl.
“My life didn’t please me, so I created my life.”
– Coco Chanel
I am so excited to create my life in 2011. I have a lot to celebrate this year: the birth of my niece, my sister’s wedding, my 30th birthday. I’m going to get focused on the things that are here and now, the things I have control over. I’m going to work hard. Workout hard. Just think of all a girl can accomplish with a steady heart and her feet planted firmly on the ground. I sinned in 2010. In 2011, I will repent.
I want to thank you, my lovelies for reading my little blog. It brings me so much joy. I wish each and every one of you a very happy new year!